So today we were sitting at the Donut Shop, just Liv and me. I take her there every Monday after we drop Leila, Landyn and Daddy off at school and work for their days. We were just talking about whatever, girl can talk... I have no idea where she gets that from. Anyway, she looked across the table and as serious as she could be asked, "What would happen if we got naked in the Donut Shop?" It made me laugh out loud and later while we were driving home, I am NOT proud of this one! I need to watch my mouth... she said, "MOVE FREAKING LADY!" ... I got a phone call the other day from a good friend of mine who was watching Liv and she said Liviana came to her close to tears saying that, her daughter, Addy had thrown her pants in the toilet. She asked Addy and Addy, of course, said, "NO, I didn't!" Liviana persisted that she had and was sooo upset about it so Jayme went to check and Addy's pants were NOT in the toilet. Right when she looked in the toilet, Liv ran by the bathroom laughing and yell, "IT WORKED, I TRICKED HER!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! All of these things that happened just in the last few days made me think, these girls say the sweetest, funniest, not always the best, most out there, most common sense things ever. And then days later I forget, I know they said or did something I wanted to remember but I didn't take the time to stop and write it down or type it up. I am going to start TODAY. I don't wanna forget anymore. When I am an old grandma I wanna be able too look back at this blog and stay entertained and laughing for hours. I love my girls and life happens too fast to not stop and take note of the things that your kids have done. So I will be blogging daily, perhaps a couple times a day. They will probably be quite short just quotes of the day that I want to share or something that happend that I want to remember.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Landyn Rose
I just gave my last kiss to Landy as my little 3 year old... Of course that deserves a blog, right???!?!! :)
Landyn Rose is our wildfire child. She is the absolute sweetest girl, who can never give enough love, but girl's got some fire in her. She is the middle child, in every strech of the imagination. Ornery as all get out but you can help but continuously laughing at her. She says the funniest things and she will crack you up with her looks. You can always see it in her eyes, she always has something going though her mind... most of the time it is probably a plot or trying to figure out why something is happening or how something works. She amazes me in every way. You haven't played the game 20 questions until you have a conversation with this little lady! She can't get enough information, which is good! I want her to ask all the questions she wants, how else will she learn. My heart is so torn tonight cause my little Landy isn't so little anymore. I feel as if time is literally flying! I don't think you can fully understand until you have children of your own... You get married and time speeds up but when you have kids, some days can't get over quick enough :) BUT the weeks, months and years seem like they are on fast forward. I remember 4 years ago tonight I was packing my bag cause I knew tomorrow was the day. I put my 13 month old down that night thinking, "Baby, you will never know life without your sister..." I packed my bows and cute outfits and a pasi of course, cause we all know the hospital ones are soooo ugly. YES! that mattered to me, DON'T judge me! LOL! I talked to Jerome P. that night and kissed my husband goodnight, knowing that my life was about to be forever changed. Little did I know how much. My delivery should have given me full insight as to how Landy would impacted our lives. We got to the hospital @ 7:30... about 8:40 I was ready for my epidural, I know, big baby, but I allow myself to cry though 1 contraction and then I ask for it, I wanted to enjoy every moment and why not, if I can?? So the anesthesiologist is still in the room and the nurse said, "GET A DR IN HERE NOW!!" Doc comes in and is LIVID that they called him. I mean they just got the ball rolling at 8... He came in and and had a few choice words for the nurse for calling him... He didn't even take time to get prepared. You could have cut the tension with a knife! The anesthesiologist just sat down in the chair next to me, I know he just wanted to stay for the show cause the Dr. was so mad. He said, "Since I am here, let's do a practice push... "OOOOOPP! There's she is" Soo I started LAUGHING... I laughed my child out. I know, I know GRAPHIC, if you are a boy, just don't read if male, just how I roll :) Went back a year later and the nurse's said, "Aren't you the lady who laughed her baby out last time?" YEP! That is me! LOVE giving birth... Anyways back on point! Landyn is just like that! Man, she can make you soooooooo mad and make you CRACK up in the same breath. I love her more than all the numbers and all the stars and all the sand. I can't imagine a single moment without her in our life. She loves to cook and she protects her sisters. She shows so much love to the girls and us. We are more proud of her than anything in the world. She has such a desire and SUCH a strong will, she admits when she is wrong and faces life with no fear. She teaches and reminds me everyday how to have fun and see all the positive that is around us. She reminds me to thank God for blessing us every night in our prayers and she encourages me that we can do anything that we set our minds to. She is our sunshine! Happy 4th Birthday Princess Landyn Rose! Mommy and Daddy love you more than you could possibly ever understand, only God loves you more than we do and I like to believe that we are close seconds. :) Love you baby!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
A nEw MaMa
So over the last few weeks I have been following a blog about a little girl who is the exact same age, give or take a day or 2, as Liviana. This little 2 year old is at the end of her battle with cancer. Infact 2 nights ago her mom had her sisters tell her goodbye and sent them to her mother's house because they didn't think little Layla would make it through the night. She is still fighting though. Layla has rocked my world. I was reading the other night about some regrets that her mom had with her and as I sat at my computer BAWLING, I was completely convicted and then it quickly turned to thanks that my babies are healthy and I have time to change and love the little "inturruptions", while I cooking or whatever, that once made me angry. I don't know how many times I have thought, said outloud, said to others or even said to the girls such as these...
"Go watch the movie, Mommy is trying to work."
"I can't wait till naptime"
"Thank you for trying to help but Mommy will do it now"
"No, Mommy will stir it we have to hurry."
"No, we are only reading 1 book tonight."
Now I know that I am not a bad mom for saying these things once in awhile but it was almost getting routine, becoming my 'reflex' answer. Why can't I take a break and snuggle to watch the movie? Why can't she help stir the brownie mix?? Will it hurt me to spend 5 more minutes before bedtime to read 1 more story? I have decided enough is enough.
If you don't know me and you are reading this you may be thinking, "WOW! What is wrong with this lady??" But I don't think I am the only mom who has felt like this. Right?? I mean, surely??? So here I am laying it out there for everyone else who thinks they may be the only ones... You aren't the only ONE! There may be only 2 of us, LOL! But you aren't the only one!
Here is my new resolve, a new mommy.
I LOVE my girls and I don't ever want to take them for granite. NEVER, EVER take the for granite.Since I have 3 little helpers; I love that it takes me an hour to unload and load the dishwasher, I love that my white socks are pink because a red shirt was thrown in, I love crunching an egg shell in my waffles. (Ok, maybe not love, but you know what I mean :) I promise to hold them when they ask, no matter the task I am in the mist of. Too soon they won't want to be held. I will charish EVERY waking moment with my girls. I will take more time for playing games, dressing up and having teaparties. Cleaning can wait, sewing can wait, God knows FaceBook can wait. I don't want to regret a single day when I could have spent just 5 more min with the girls.
I know, I know, some of you are thinking well you need mommy time, you need mommy/daddy time. I know this! :) Trust me. There is time for it all, just all too often I find myself WASTING time that could be spent wisely.
SO I am rambling now... But here is the bottom line. What if something happened to my girls? Would I have regrets on how I spent my time with them? Will I question the importance of putting that load of laundry in RIGHT then when someone was pulling at my pant to show me the fort they built? Will I wonder if the bathtub needed to be scrubbed right that second when she wanted to play hide and seek? Will I cancel my FB because I am so mad at myself for needing to catch up on what everyone else was doing when they wanted me to sit with them and read a book?
This sweet Layla Grace has helped put my importants into a new clear and unwavering view.
God, I thank you for sweet Layla, I thank you that in the short time she is spending here on earth she has touched more lives, including my own, than most of us do in 80 years. I ask that you would give her family, her momma, an amazing, undeniable peace that passes everyone's understanding. I thank you that my babies are all healthy and happy. I refuse to take them for granite and above all I thank you that you choose me to raise up 3 beautiful women who will change the world around them through You.
Love you guys! I know I normally won't be the sobby but today my heart is breaking for the momma of this little girl.
Britanie
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